In my line of job, or at least with the tempo I work in (PLUS the amount of bills I need to pay for), I usually hold down a day job with freelance projects on the side.Daytime disappears as quickly as night time.

Before I know it, I've breezed through several sunrises and sunsets and losing count of all of them.

Most of the time, it is just me and my computer in the middle of the home office. I type in what it needs to do, and it happens. It's quite a one-way street, and it is definitely not healthy. Hence, the several blogs that I am able to maintain for some years now: this, about my personal thoughts, food, culture and travel, my dog, my running activities, and other things. I still have about a couple more "rant blogs", which I will never publicize under my name.

It is unhealthy because I believe that I should be spending more time conversing with people, with friends, with families, instead of sitting in front of the computer all the time. It is healthier that way, but who am I kidding? I love my job, and I love what I do. I am a workaholic.

But while taking pauses and trying to figure out a solution for a problem with certain projects I need to work on, there is that silence.

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No matter how much people you are surrounded with, or the amount of humans or animals you get to interact with for running errands and taking care of responsibilities, it would just be you and yourself at the end of the day. 

After several nights of staying awake to meet deadlines and when you are able to finally lay down to sleep, when you switch off the lights and feel the pillow on the side of your head, it is just really you that is left in the middle of this darkness.

What else are you then left to deal with?

With the beast inside,
there’s nowhere we can hide.
- "Demons", Imagine Dragons