There Is A Certain -

...complexity in life that one has to live by and something that wants to be undealt with, all the time. I know, nobody said it was easy but until when are you supposed to be fighting? Always. What happens if you run out of morale? Ended up in a job you said was temporary, and was still unable to find a better job in a span of one year. I have NO RIGHT to complain, I get that. Most people have it worse than I. Having no right to complain does not make it any easier, tho.

...resolve after going home, and back. Despite the next new year's celebration being 11 months away, you start to feel good about yourself. You end up remembering who you are, and what you are. The best part is remembering what you are worth, and that mind set you grew up with knowing you can STILL be whatever and whoever you want to be, whenever. That is, despite being a bit communicationally-challenged for the time being.

...degree of happiness and tolerance that one seems to mistake for one another. There is a certain realization of how the word "difficult" is redefined in ways you have never imagined before, and how one should be able to surpass it if one wants to be happy, to say the least.

...claim to sanity after everything you have been through. That even from how comfortable you were where you came from, you can still be humbled by people of different races and cultures, amongst other things. You take a deep breath, and hold on to the reality that this is just going to be one of those nightmares you will wake up from, some few months, or even weeks, from now.